A year ago I used blogging as my escape from my capstone coursework. Now, blogging is something that I like to do but don't feel the need to do as often. My break really showed me that I'm not in the rat race like many bloggers. I don't really care about page views or monetizing right now, so why am I spending hours of my time producing consistent and (sometimes) new content?
I want to make blogging personal again. My favorite posts have always been the around here/currently/thought dump ones because, in 10 years, those are the ones I want to read again. Link roundups and small business talk and the posts that are supposed to get traffic are the ones I'm waaaaay less interested in, but I did them because that's how you get readers and sponsors and everything. Eh, that's not where I am anymore.
I'm not going to lie, I really did think about just deleting this blog altogether at one point, but I ultimately decided not to do that yet. It may happen down the road (especially when I have to renew my domain), but for now I'll keep making my personal posts. Maybe once a week, maybe twice a month…who knows. I'm in a weird place where I'm trying to find what sticks for me, and monetizing and whatnot just wasn't. It was producing too much stress and anxiety, and I draw the line at waking up at 3:30 in the morning because I realize that I forgot to write that day's blog post.
So, we've covered what's next for this space. What else is next for me? I'm not going back to school next semester, and I'm enrolling in yoga teacher training starting in February. I've realized how little I care about traditional school now that I've had a taste for freedom, and I've been seeking that next step in my life. I'm also painting again (good sign!) and my vegetarian eating has been on point lately. I'm also getting new advice on my thyroid treatment and visiting a naturopathic doctor to see if that's where I want to go. I'm still reading when I can, although my book of choice isn't always on my list of books I need to finish (and by that I may mean I'm re-reading Michael Pollan…again). I'm also having fun decluttering both my physical world and digital world. Yay new beginnings!
I also got my Star Wars tickets and preordered Adele's new album on vinyl last week, so I have that going for me too.
Clearly, there will still be tons to write about, and none of it will feel as forced as it was starting to get. Will be top-notch quality content that will draw in thousands of readers a day? Probably not, but it will be something I'll want to read 10 years later. That's all I want right now from this.